Madison.Jarvis

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  • in reply to: Grandparents who don't get it #125294
    Madison.Jarvis
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    I only found out that I had ADD at 19 and looking back on my childhood I was punished for so many things that I couldn’t control, I still have self esteem issue because of it. My older sister was the perfect child while I was a mess. I’m still trying to snap out of my habit of comparing myself to her.

    As a kid I used to have to listen to music to get to sleep (later found out it’s an ADHD thing) but if my parents caught me with my Ipod at night it would be taken away for a week. I had outbursts and a short fuse in which I would slam my bedroom door, my parents would just remove my door for a week.
    They would get angry and disappointed when I failed maths and science tests to which I always tried to remind them that I was a top student in my art and drama classes.

    Looking back it’s hard not to judge my parents because they didn’t know why I was like this, hell I didn’t know why I did what I did.

    I had depression for a few years before my ADD diagnosis (caused by not understanding why I felt like a failure) and honestly it was easier for them to understand ADD then it was for then to understand depression. At least now I don’t get told to ‘pull my head in’ when having a breakdown.

    in reply to: It's just 15-20 minutes… it's not a big deal #125165
    Madison.Jarvis
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    I have over time developed almost a fear of being late. I think it stems from making it to adulthood before being diagnosed. I have had near panic attacks while driving places because I think I won’t make it on time.

    To solve this I add about 15 minutes on top of however long Google maps tells me it will take. I check the night before how long it will take then add the 15 minutes, so say if its a 15 minute drive I convince myself that I need half an hour to get there. This often ends with me sitting in my car around the corner for sometimes up to half an hour but at least I’m not having a breakdown and shouting at the car in front of me for not speeding.

    I am not a morning person and sleep is my top priority, if I don’t have a meeting that day I won’t wear make-up just so I can sleep for 10 more minutes.

    Medication has helped me in so many ways but getting up early isn’t one of them.

    in reply to: Recently diagnosed with ADHD and prescribed Vyvanse #124863
    Madison.Jarvis
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    I am also just recently diagnosed and trying Vyvanse. I started on 10mg then 15mg then 30mg for a month and am now on 45mg going to 50mg next week. I felt it for the first few days on 10mg but it was just my body getting used to the new drug after that I didn’t really feel a difference until I hit 45mg.

    Unfortunately the stronger dose brings stronger side effects and a stronger crash at the end of the day. I’m anxious about going up to 50mg but in Australia the pills only come in 30mg,50mg and 70mg so I have to settle on one otherwise I’ll spend the rest of my life mixing with water and figuring out ratios.

    I know you can’t rush these things but I really just want to be settled on a dose and get on with my life. I don’t know what its like in other countries but having ADHD in Australia is very expensive, I hate that I have to pay just to keep up with the rest of the world.

    Sorry about the rant, I hope this helps

    in reply to: New diagnosis, new meds– new symptoms? #124755
    Madison.Jarvis
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    I was diagnosed with depression years ago and have just only recently been told that my depression was caused by undiagnosed ADHD. I have the inattentive type and not the hyperactivity but since starting my meds I feel the same way you described. I’m constantly doing things, I can’t switch off and I feel like I’ve just had 10 coffees all the time.

    I don’t know about you but I’m loving this energy as I have spent years in a depressive state. It has also greatly helped me with my anxiety around making phone calls, something which used to send me into a panic attack.

    I look forward to doing all the things I never had the motivation to do before.

    in reply to: Academically-Inclined Folks w/ADHD? #124573
    Madison.Jarvis
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    Sounds like you defiantly have ADD if not ADHD. I was only diagnosed after I left the structured system of school and university. As soon as I didn’t have a goal to work towards my life fell apart.
    Procrastinating then hyper focusing on tasks and forgetfulness were my two biggest indicators of ADD. I also suffered from mood swings, anxiety and what I call rage fits (sudden onset anger for not reason). I’ve only been on medication for a month and I have only had one breakdown in that time which used to be a weekly occurrence.

    Never hurts to get these things checked

    in reply to: Dismissive comments, even in health care environments #124572
    Madison.Jarvis
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    I got diagnosed with ADD last month and my mother is constantly saying that she thinks she has it and I get annoyed because in almost certain she doesn’t.

    I have also recently got a new boss and I had to tell her that I have fortnightly doctors appointments (ADHD Psychologist) but I don’t want to tell her about the ADD because of the stigma around it.

    Madison.Jarvis
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    I understand exactly how you feel. I work in administration and I sometimes forget to confirm venue bookings or answer questions people email. I often find flagged emails from months ago that I forgot to reply to and I feel so guilty it keeps me up at night.

    You tried your best to fix the situation and keeping it bottled up is going to make you overthink and feel even more ashamed. The best thing to do is tell your family, believe me they will understand and in a few months it will just be a funny story to tell at parties.

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