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  • in reply to: North Carolina? #178735
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    I moved across the line to SC 3 years ago when I got married. I would much rather be in NC. I am in NC all the time since my family is there. Also my doctors, veterinarian, and beautician are there. I cannot find any mental health providers in SC.
    I don’t know where in NC you are but I know it is so difficult to find other ADHD’ers. I placed several ads on various websites here in SC for anyone interested in setting up a monthly or so meeting. Just to talk to someone that understands. One person replied for her grandson. It would be so great to be with my own kind. I just wanted to talk, laugh at our crazy lives and when necessary cry on a shoulder that understands.
    I’m on the coast. I also asked the same question right here a while back. Anyone in NC/SC? I never had a response. I think in the south it’s mental health is still kept secret. Sad. Hope that changes.

    in reply to: Coronavirus Virus unfair med policy #168889
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    I think different states have different laws about regular prescriptions and class II prescriptions. I see a PA in NC. SC where I live will not allow Physician Assistant to write any prescriptions. So I can’t fill any script here. In SC they allow Nurse Practitioners to write prescriptions but not Class II. My PA also has a NP license but I still can’t fill my Dextroamphetamine. I take 4 medications and use mail order for two of them but they will not fill class II drugs. I’m stuck driving an hour and getting surly looks from the pharmacy techs because I just drove an hour with no meds taken for a day or two. I’m not pleasant looking and pretty much look like I have a drug problem because I need my medication. I’m anxious, can’t focus, spacy and have lost all my patience. They don’t know about mental health. They only know about addicts coming in like me and trying to get drugs like me. But I have ADHD and severe anxiety. I wish there were mental health awareness commercials on tv so people will understand.

    in reply to: Coronavirus Virus unfair med policy #145307
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    I hope you cope and are better than you anticipate. I know when I can’t take my meds for even a day, I have total brain fog and my anxiety is out of control. I can’t do anything. I usually do this once a month since for some reason they won’t fill my prescription till I’m totally out and should not be driving the 40 miles to the drug store. I’m hoping this pandemic will not make our situations even worse.

    in reply to: Coronavirus Virus unfair med policy #145306
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    I moved here 2 years ago and cannot find any mental health doctors so I drive back to where I used to live. There is another city to my south but none of the psychiatrists take insurance. Cash only. I understand your struggle. I wish I could help you and everyone to get what they need to make it in this life. The mental health care is a disgrace. I so feel for the people in this town who have even more problems than I do. I’m sure they end up in jail, on the street, or no longer with us. The city never talks about this problem. The government needs to encourage more to go into mental health care by help with tuition or something. The DEA also needs to give waivers to the people who truly need these medications.
    I wish I we’re stronger with no anxiety so I could start a movement. Speaking for ADHD’ers, and all people with mental health who cannot find a Psychiatrist, cannot get help or medication to make this life more livable.

    in reply to: Clinic policy violating accessibility rights? #140817
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    I have a similar problem. I can’t find a mental health Dr near me so I have to drive 2 hours each way to another state. I can’t fill the prescription in the state I live in since it was written in another state so I drive 1 hour each way to a pharmacy at the state line. I will call ahead to the pharmacy before I go but when I get there they never have it. I end up making 2 sometimes 3 trips there a month. I run out every month and have a hard time without my medication. I’ve started skipping a dosage occasionally to save up for when my prescription runs out. I’m 61. Have never had a drug problem, have good insurance but am treated like an addict trying to scam meds. We have either no or extremely bad mental health care. I don’t think anyone cares how bad it is except the people looking for help. It’s so sad to know that no one cares about me and other people needing help more than me. I hope you can resolve your problem. I know I need my medication but know I’m on my own with no help in my local area. Please know you’re not alone and I’m sending you good wishes that it will get better.

    in reply to: The Struggle #132322
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    I hate that you’ve had to struggle so long. Bullying is not right. Bullying is not normal. Normal? Don’t even try to be (normal) if it means being mean to others. What is normal? Everyone is different. You are a beautiful person that just needs more self confidence like I do. I feel I don’t fit in either. I’m on a campaign to find nearby adhd’rs to console and have great conversations with but no luck yet. Are you taking medication. I haven’t yet found the perfect meds but it helps. I am a lot older and still feel lonely. I no longer try to fit in. I am me. You are you. You’re a beautiful individual. In working situations they always need someone to talk about or ostracize. You are taking all the pain but saving another person from that pain. I volunteer at an animal rescue. I get a lot of love from my animals. I fit in with the cats and dogs (not necessarily with the volunteers). It’s such a comfort. I used to volunteer at a food bank and felt so comfortable there. I guess you need to try to find something that makes you feel needed. In the meantime you shouldn’t try to fit in with bullies. You are better. This is a simple song but it is about adhders and has beautiful words.

    in reply to: Reading Tools for iPad #129301
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    I hope someone with an answer replies. I was an avid reader before I quit smoking in 2007. I have not read a book since. My doctor said I was self medicating. I had quit for 6 months a couple years before that and could not read more than a paragraph before drifting off. I could retain everything the first day I started smoking again. Before 2007 I read at least 2 books a week, mostly non-fiction and a couple of newspapers a day. I still try to read the NYT on my iPhone or iPad and a couple of other papers but I can’t get past two paragraphs. I only skim most articles. Sorry to carry on about myself. I just hope someone replies with a good solution. I miss reading so much.

    in reply to: Losing time … so much time (a little frustration rant) #126941
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    While growing up in my adhd family things were often lost or misplaced things but it was okay. We always said, “It will turn up one day.” It did turn up. Sometimes in a few minutes and sometimes years later but that was okay. No big deal. It was fun to come across something you were looking for last week and wonder how it got there. No stress. Now I’m stressed and on meds while searching for my keys because I’m trying to live in a non-adhd world.

    in reply to: Losing time … so much time (a little frustration rant) #126940
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    Yes. I solve most of my day to day problems outside the box that my husband totally doesn’t understand but works for me. He’s always, “that’s not the way you’re supposed to do that.” When I’m with my adhd mom there are no questions asked about me doing something differently, creatively or sometimes just plain strange. I’m free to do things my way and sometimes it turns out to be the better way.
    Why do we have to change to live in the non-adhd world. Some of our problems are only problems because we are not allowed to do things our way. Why can’t we be ourselves?
    I could rant about this forever. I just think I wouldn’t need medication, I wouldn’t have anxiety and would be so happy if we weren’t expected to conform to non-adhd ways. I so want to live with other adhd’ers with all our creativity and spontaneity. Pure bliss. No so called normal people allowed. They just stress us out wanting us to conform.

    in reply to: Is mindfulness bull? #126668
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    Thank you💗

    in reply to: CBD #126549
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    I find better relief with just Rescue Remedy. It only eases my anxiety momentarily but at least I can catch my breath during that 2-3 minutes. Rescue Remedy is a lot cheaper but the results are so brief. Still searching for both anxiety and adhd medications that work for me. Still searching for local mental health care.

    On a lighter note I spent the entire day making a beautiful To-Do List. Nothing else. I so enjoyed making that list, knowing I wouldn’t have time to do anything on it today and not caring. It’s a lovely list. Colorful. Fun fonts. Photos. Such fun wasting time.

    in reply to: CBD #126548
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    I think everyone has different results with CBD and various brands. I first tried Charlotte’s Web. Nothing. No ADHD or anxiety relief. Then I heard about Lazarus Naturals. It didn’t do a thing. CBDDistillery. Nope. CBDFx. No luck. Sometimes becoming desperate to relieve my anxiety I would buy various cbd brands. A few years ago I was in Colorado and bought some gummies with thc to try microdosing. I cut the gummies up in small pieces. It relieved my anxiety and I got a few nights sleep. I don’t live in Colorado so I went back to trying cbd. I finally had luck with Koi. I vaped and used the tincture. After taking it for a few weeks it didn’t seem to work as well. My dog is on the Koi dog spray and it helps her thunder freakouts. This month my bank account is not happy so I can only find a little relief in what the insurance company pays for. I’m wondering why the cbd stopped working for me. Next month I’ll try again.
    Everyone is different and has different results.

    in reply to: Is mindfulness bull? #126545
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    I cannot do it. Mindfulness is so incredibly boring. It is pure torture for me. I can’t wait for it to be over. That’s all I can think about. Hurry up. I have better things to do. My doctor scolds me for not trying it more. I have so many mindfulness CD’s and apps. Some of the apps I never opened after downloading.
    I so wish I could get into it. I always hear it really helps. My ADHD prevents me. If I had the ability to master mindfulness then I think I wouldn’t have needed it to begin with.

    in reply to: Losing time … so much time (a little frustration rant) #126419
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    My dream. An adhd world with tiny houses, no clocks, no pressure, no disappointing others. If I were rich I would build an ADHD community. I think I would finally have no anxiety and so much fun. Why do we have to fit in the normal world?

    in reply to: Losing time … so much time (a little frustration rant) #125560
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    In my own ADHD world I don’t mind misplacing things. It never bothered me. That’s me. I will find the item soon. I can drive to a new location getting lost on the way. An adventure seeing new things. I have gps on my phone but don’t mind being lost. I was lost before there was gps and enjoyed it. In my other supposedly normal world (no ADHD allowed), I am always late because I cannot find my keys. I can’t find something that MUST be found several times a day. If someone is with me when I get lost they are frustrated with me. They are nervous if they don’t know where they are.
    I feel if left alone I am free to enjoy my passing time no pressure to constrain it. I want to live in an all ADHD community. Such chaos. Such fun. Freedom.

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