Casper82

[Casper82]

Hi everyone – Sorry I was gone a while, to be honest I was waiting for some alone-time to have a proper read through everything and really focus on it. I’ve not told anyone about the forum or my thought process so far, I know it would unleash a flood of unsolicited ‘helpful advice’ or shut-downs. Good to know there are so many people who can relate to my mindset, and so many balanced level-headed thoughts about where my head may be at! It really resonates with me how a busy career can keep things in check. I’m definitely going to get a professional opinion, just to draw a line under it really.

One other thing… how does caffeine affect you guys? Reason I ask is because everyone else I know drinks coffee/energy drinks to be more alert – I’m quite the opposite, I pretty much have coffee on an IV drip all day as it seems to slow down my pace and keep me calm.

(P.S. Sorry for accidentally posting reply mid-thread)

[Casper82]

Hi everyone – Sorry I was gone a while, to be honest I was waiting for some alone-time to have a proper read through everything and really focus on it. I’ve not told anyone about the forum or my thought process so far, I know it would unleash a flood of unsolicited ‘helpful advice’ or shut-downs. Good to know there are so many people who can relate to my mindset, and so many balanced level-headed thoughts about where my head may be at! It really resonates with me how a busy career can keep things in check. I’m definitely going to get a professional opinion, just to draw a line under it really.

One other thing… how does caffeine affect you guys? Reason I ask is because everyone else I know drinks coffee/energy drinks to be more alert – I’m quite the opposite, I pretty much have coffee on an IV drip all day as it seems to slow down my pace and keep me calm.

[Casper82]

Thanks Penny,

Yeah, I’ve been speculating for years. I guess that speculation has grown into a nagging doubt that perhaps I’m just imagining it, or that maybe everyone feels this way at times and so on. I’ve mentioned how I feel to some people (usually after more than a few drinks) but I’ve ceased raising it because the standard responses I got were:

a) “No, you’re not… you’re just shy/introverted/into your hobbies.” etc…
b) “No, definitely not, I know someone who’s like that, and you’re nothing like them.”

I can associate with many of the points in the article you shared – there seem to be traits of both ASD and ADHD that I can see in myself daily. I can handle ambiguity and change just fine (I likely got used to it as I’m so disorganised) but I struggle like hell to relax and do nothing – which seems to really irk people who tell me take it easy for a while. I don’t think anyone had concerns about me as a kid, except for my shyness, but one of my school reports seemed to sum me up perfectly – ‘His work is always very detailed and wonderfully presented, but often not at all what I had asked him to do.’

I think I’d better look into a proper diagnosis – otherwise I’ll spend the rest of my life wondering!!

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