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I would definitely talk to someone about your suicidal feelings. Have you tried any other medications? I’ve triedAbout 15. Only one works vyvanse but I’m willing to try more and more and more and more until I find something that helps. I’m 42 I’m overwhelmed and I drown myself in self-pity sometimes. Just hold on. It won’t everbe perfect but it will be a lot better.I I am a father of two kids. I wash the clothes I wash the dishes I clean the sinks and the tub’s. I clean the bathrooms. My wife Has a lot on her plate too. She doesn’t believe in ADD.But that’s just life .nobody believesWhat you’re going through is as bad as it is until they’re going through it too. The stigma is so bad I never told my fatherAnd I never will.
My doctor prescribed a second dose. I’ve gone as high as 120 mg. I’ve tried drug holidays. The effectiveness depends on the person. I found they do more harm than good. We are all different. There are people who do great with 10 mg. Don’t let their experience impact yours. The goal isn’t to take less medication. The goal is to find what works for you. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 37 because my father somehow convinced me there was some type of honor in taking as little medication as possible. Talk to your doctor about a higher dose or a booster dose of adderal. There’s no harm in taking your medication. The harm is not getting the help you need.
I am 41 and will never tell my father. I wanted to, but I rather he think what he thinks of me. He is the reason I didn’t take nary an aspirin until I was 35. His motto was deal with it; sickness is for the weak. He readily admits he would never tell me he was in pain even if he was. He would probably laugh in my face if I told him.
I wish I didn’t have to tell my wife (she’s very skeptical. Scam is too harsh), but I needed to tell her so her mother (a doctor, also skeptical. But because I am not “blood” family. Long story) would refer me to a highly respected psychiatrist rather than some prescription machine. That required me telling her mother. Telling her mother means about another 50 people (All of whom are skeptical, because I am not “blood” family. Long story) know about my ADHD.
Its never too late. I was 37. I’ve had some of the best years of my life after my diagnosis and treatment with medication. I know my kids, friends, and family in ways I never imagined. However, I am not free of regret. I have bad days. I have many more good days.
I was prescribed two doses a day. I also didn’t like IR. All I did was ask my doctor. She was ok with it but she wanted me to monitor my ability to sleep. Worked ok. My sleep was fine. However, I eventually switched to Vyvanse. It works better for me.
I was worried she say no. But she was very understanding and wanted to help me. I was 30 when I was diagnosed but didn’t take medication until I was 37.
Why won’t he give you stimulants? Will he prescribe you non-stimulants?
I was taking Teva for the past few months and I felt exactly like you feel. I told my doctor and I went back to Vyvanse and I feel much better.
I experienced ineffectiveness with another generic adderall. I didn’t return the pills, my doctor wrote a prescription for vyvanse and I disposed of the other pills. I am thankful my doctor treats me like an adult and understands this happens. I am sure some doctors might accuse their patients of hoarding pills in a situation like this.
I am an adult (35+) recently diagnosed with ADHD and I know how you feel because I feel that way sometimes. First thing, give yourself some credit for trying to improve your situation. But because of your age I would advise you to talk to your parents. I think a big mistake people with ADHD, including myself, make is we don’t invest enough time learning non-medication coping skills like exercise, talk therapy, our diets, meditation, etc. I think for me learning to live without my medication has helped me better understand and appreciate the benefits of medication and the compromises I make when I am on medication. Every time I feel a negative side effect, I ask myself “Whats the alternative?”. I did a cost benefit analysis and determined I am willing to live with the side effects of medication. However, the benefits are not as great as I once thought. Initially I thought benefits outweighed side effects 80/20; it is more like 65/35. I am going to have trouble sleeping sometimes. I am going to forget to eat. I am going to be unusually irritable some days. I am going forget to take my medication. My stomach may hurt. I may forget to lock up my medication. You get the point. The medication is not necessarily ruining your life, its just a part of your life you deal with like anything else. It will allow you to overcome adversity but sometimes it will create its own. And you may need to develop an approach to deal with it. Which is why talking to your parents is important. I lived without medication for over 35 years. It was hard. But I figured out ways to make it a good life. I hope everything works out and feel free come back to the forum with any progress you make.
Maybe you can ask your doctor to write you a prescription for vyvanse or some other medication that possibly can treat your add in the meantime. I’ve done that. My insurance company did talk to my doctor about me possibly hoarding my pills, which I wasn’t. It may be a good time to experiment to see if other medications can provide some relief. I am 41 and have been taking medication for 4 years. Caffeine with L-theanine might be something OTC you can try. I know its difficult without medication.I struggled with irritability, restlessness, and anger for 30 years before I found relief. I have taken drug holidays and being off medication, ineffective medication, and medication tolerance can turn your world upside down.
I have a really good psychiatrist. Her husband and daughter have add and I think it gives her a better understanding of the patient/medication relationship. I am very fortunate.
I am confident things will work out for you.January 23, 2019 at 1:33 pm in reply to: Focus shot by the end of the day…effecting my marriage #107441
I was diagnosed at 30 but didn’t start taking medication until I was 37. I have a wife and two small children. Management job required high amount of focus. I came home, sat on couch, and pulled out phone. I started taking a second dose of Vyvanse per my doctor’s recommendation. It helped tremendously. I think it saved my marriage. I was in the moment, I was engaged, and I was available for my wife and children. I was also available for my siblings, my nieces, my nephews, and my friends.
Things got so good I tried to come off Vyvanse completely. I was not a fan of medication and would have preferred not take any. Under my doctor’s care, I slowly (about a year) reduced my Vyvanse intake by 75%. It was a mistake. I started having problems again. But my doctor would not just raise my dosage. She slowly raised my dosage but not to as high as it was. The point I am trying to make and what I learned is sometimes medication can be part of the solution.
Maybe taking a job that is less demanding on your focus will help. Or maybe you can ask your doctor to prescribe two doses of Vyvanse that equals your current dose (i.e. take 50mg in the morning and 20mg early in the early afternoon instead of just 70mg in the morning.). I tried this. it didn’t work for me.
Your dose might be too high. Stimulant crashes wipe you out. Part of your day needs to be spent recovering from stimulants. This means spending part of your day off stimulants. Bigger dose = Bigger Crash.
Also, staying hydrated is important. When us ADD folks hit a sweetspot in our productivity we forget to eat and drink the way we should which can negatively impact the medications effectiveness.
I am 41.
Been on vyvanse for 4+ years
My dosage has been as high as 70mg morning/50mg afternoon
Also, you don’t want the dose too high. There may be times you lose your medication or can’t get a prescription filled and will need to spend a month without medication.
I cant take it unless I get a full nights sleep. But it is hard to get a full nights sleep when you take stimulants.