Thank you, Chris.
That is helpful. I’m glad you and your wife are good partners. I hope to not be beating on myself so I can open my heart again. I’m much better with that now but occasionally just cry about how small I made myself, how negative my self-talk became as a tried to be someone I am not. Kind of like what I did as an undiagnosed kid, actually. It’s just sad that I couldn’t be loved anyway. Even more sad what I did to myself to remain in that marriage for four years.