adore.d.d

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  • in reply to: Was on the verge of panic today, from people talking. #112215
    adore.d.d
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    ME TOO!!! I thought I was the only one. Thank you for sharing. Goodness, this happens a lot to me, it’s like all my senses are on overdrive. I mean for me, I have to many conversations going on inside my head and add a bunch of people into the mix sends my anxiety into panic mood. It physically hurts my head. I wish I could just be by myself most days. It’s not only to many voices it’s the pitch and repetitive noises send me over the edge. It’s bad. Music helps a lot, writing to God about how I feel, and even coloring helps me (lol!). It’s nice to know I’m not alone and your not either 🙂

    adore.d.d
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    Thank you for sharing, especially because my life hasn’t exactly been easy. I felt the same way as a child going up. I never seemed to fit in anywhere. I ended up dropping out of school, had a baby at 17 and married at 19. The guy I married decided he didn’t want to be a grown up anymore and left me with our daughter who was 1 at the time. I fell apart and that’s was when I started using drugs but mostly MDMA. Every weekend I would get a babysitter so Iso I could party. I felt happy for once and loved but eventually I realized it was just lie. myself This isn’t how I imagined my life as a kid. Feeling alone, dumb, worthless. I asked myself is this the kind if person I want to be for my kid? Long story short. I found God for myself and truly went all in for one year. I know sounds crazy but I told God if he is real, I will give it a shot for one year. If he isn’t I would probably go back to drugs. Sad but true. In that year I had out I was ADHD at the age of 30. Went to college ending up with honors and now working with ESE Students at a Middle School. I’m now almost 40. I still cry and messed up but The difference now is I know God loves me and I have the honor of helping kids that are going through the emotional rollercoaster as I did and still am. So, I want you to know, “I get it, Lifetotally sucks.” But never give up on yourself, pick yourself up after a good cry and forgive yourself and move on. There is hope if you want to find it. Xoxo PS. I hope I didn’t mess up to bad because my cell will only allow me to see the word I am texting. So Sorry 😉

    in reply to: Self-Sabotage & Loss of Motivation #88009
    adore.d.d
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    I’m female in my 30’s and was diagnosed with ADHD in my late 20’s. I felt very misunderstood my whole life. The diagnosis has helped me not feel like I’m a total lost cause but because of all the stigma behind the diagnosis I still alone.

    I feel like to have any kind of stability I need support. But I have no one to help me. Parents have never been a shoulder, friends that’s funny. Somewhere along the way I’ve seem to messed that up.

    So, how can you get proper help when I don’t have the ability to get a full time job. So because ur not completely disabled there is no help. Than the depression that is already there begins to takes its hold especially when I’m hit with the migraines that will last up to a week.

    Life always Worried, feeling alone, misunderstood, painful headaches,and locked up inside my own self.

    I’m not a quiter even though I want to give up. I always start out with the best intentions but the motivation gets lost in a world full of negatives.

    & People effect me so deeply, it’s like I can actually feel how they feel.

    I make silly mistakes all the time which canget really annoying you don’t understand howcould they…

    How can I start when I don’t see the point because I’ll just end up where I started… And starting over and over and over… Only to try again to start over… Very misunderstood

    These are my thoughts…

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