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  • in reply to: Losing it #138300
    2weelz
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    To everybody,

    Thanks for all the replies; good to know I’m not alone.

    The bun was in the microwave, despite the fact that I didn’t use it that night.

    I discovered that I lost a list of referrals from my doctor. I have to call him to get the info again. I put his number in my contacts list, but of course I can’t find it…

    My watch went missing two days ago.

    So it goes. When I stop the crazy talk (it disappeared, it’s not where I last put it, object permanence is a lie, etc.) early enough, I can stay in a rational space. It will take awhile to catch up to all the new posts on this thread. Looks like I hit a nerve.

    ~2weelz

    in reply to: The ADHD Home Chef #114469
    2weelz
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    Thanks for all tne replies! But am shocked at how…functional some of you seem. I mean, yeah, get out everything you need…and watch it disappear, right? Just tonight, I searched for, and found, a pastry brush. Less than a minute later, it was gone again. It was in my hand, then it wasn’t. After 10-15 minues of fruitless searching, I gave up and walked to the store to buy a new one. I ended up just getting some olive oil spray. I have no idea what I did with that brush, or if I’ll ever see it again. I have “disappeared” plenty of things, some permanently, without ever leaving the room with them.
    I am going to lose multiple objects during every task. I just am. Then I have to stop and search, or substitute something else, or just do without. It’s a constant struggle. I thought this happened to everyone with ADHD, but maybe not. Or maybe not as much.

    in reply to: When Medication Doesn't Work… #90429
    2weelz
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    Hi,
    You are not alone. I have tried six or so meds. None of them have helped, all of them have had adverse effects. Ned Hallowell always says that medications don’t help about 20% of people living with ADHD. You have tried most of them, so you may be among those.

    If you have access to someone who knows how to apply CBT to ADHD, why not take advantage of it? I wish I could, but I can’t find anyone like that. And if someday they come out with something new that does help, you’ll have skills that will make the new treatment even more effective.

    in reply to: Math is hell #65501
    2weelz
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    Hi, I struggle with math, too. I am interested in the work of Barbara Oakley, an engineer who specializes in helping people learn, especially maths–Check out an exerpt of her book and see if it looks good to you: http://barbaraoakley.com/books/a-mind-for-numbers/
    She also has some free courses on Coursera on learning to learn–I forgot that I signed up until I saw your post, so thanks.

    Do you have access to a counselor of any sort? You need someone who can really listen to your pain, and not just judge you and tell you to work harder. Even a sympathetic friend or relative can help.

    Finally, what are you good at? What comes easily to you? Focus on subjects you are naturally good at. It is easy to concentrate so much on trying to improve in your weak areas, that you neglect your real strengths. Make sure you cultivate the things you are good at, and push them as far as you can.

    in reply to: 20 years of treatment failure: is there hope? #60427
    2weelz
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    @Penny, I do thank you for that link, and will listen or watch

    @gentlygenli
    , yes, timers are a help, and I do use them. But improved brain function is needed to really take advantage of them. You have to remember to set them. You have to have a certain amount of focus to “do nothing else” without getting pulled off track. Your hyperfocus can’t be so strong that you just ignore the alarm. But yeah, maybe I could add a few more. Do you use timer apps, or hardware timers?

    in reply to: 20 years of treatment failure: is there hope? #60254
    2weelz
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    <sigh> I guess I could watch this a third time. He does not answer my main problem. Hours at a time disappear inexplicably, without my being able to account for them. I took 5 hours to make a simple rice-and-red-lentil one-pot dish last night. Should have taken less than an hour. As a result, I was up until 2 AM; my target bedtime was 11:00. I cannot tell you what I did for most of that time; I do not know what happened during those hours. Perhaps I was abducted by aliens; how would I know?

    On a typical day, I will be getting my shoes on to walk out the door, a task that takes 3 minutes, and suddenly it’s 15 minutes later, and I don’t know why. It is like this all day long, every day. Time just disappears.

    But it doesn’t. I know I am getting distracted into doing this and that and the other, responding to needs in the moment, there is some recollection when I really think about it. But the distractability and impulsivity are so extreme that I can’t really stop it and I should be in the shower right now instead I’m typing this. See what I mean? All these tips and tricks and principles require a certain amount of focus and ability to stay on task that I just don’t have to begin with. The basic brain function necessary to even apply all this great stuff is just not there. So I’m stuck.

    It’s 10:20 right now and I intended to be done with my shower, now I may be late for work. I knew I should have stopped typing, but I COULD NOT STOP. That’s how it works.

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