Sharing some thoughts…

Home Welcome to the ADDitude Forums For Adults Emotions & Shame Sharing some thoughts…

Viewing 2 reply threads
  • Author
    Posts
    • #51772
      kellula
      Participant

      Just found this forum and wanted to share my thoughts. I don’t usually write poetry but this poured out of me this morning…

      Stop biting your nails
      he slaps my hand
      He doesn’t understand
      I can’t process what he’s saying
      Unless I’m gnawing at my skin

      Stop interrupting, you’re just so rude
      but it comes out of my mouth
      before I think it through
      and if I don’t say it now
      It’s lost forever

      Could you finish your sentence for once
      I’d love to
      but a thought flew by
      and it caught my eye
      and I need you to help me get back on
      the train of thought I was riding on

      Please don’t poke your head in my car!!!
      It’s a failure on wheels,
      It’s a mobile, public display
      of the things I can’t get round to
      and the mess in my brain

      Why can’t we have more?
      Because I forgot to pay the bills
      And now I’m paying charges
      So there’s no money left for thrills
      I have failed you again, kids

      But you’re a doctor and you got straight A’s
      so I feel like a fraud
      I squeezed 7 years of college
      into a dozen night befores
      Not a doctor, ssshhhh.

      Please accept my apologies for my late reply
      I lost a day to dazing
      and a month to wondering why
      and promising tomorrow
      knowing I’ll hide from that too

      Please turn the music down, I can’t taste my food
      There are days I wish I was deaf
      To be able to think
      without the singing of the birds
      derailing my train

    • #53473
      donsense
      Participant

      There are so many things in your haunting poem that do us justice. All those trigger words “forgot” apologies” “deaf wish” and I am half way there, a “dozen night befores” “if i dont say it now” “cant process what hes saying”
      If only I”lost a day to dazing ” instead of a thousand days

      The wonder is, when we live to be my age and you ponder all those things that made the once you cringe, we view it with the fondness that loving oneself especially our fully exposed peccadillos, is the reward.

    • #53607
      ajrozsa
      Participant

      Neurotypicals have the impossible task to understand how you feel, what you experience. Comorbidities of anxiety and spectrum make it even harder. Poems and drawings are an excellent means to communicate with them.

Viewing 2 reply threads

You must be logged in to reply to this topic.