July 7, 2018 at 7:54 am #87712
At the age of 41, I have decided to seek treatment again for ADHD (officially diagnosed 3 times). I am curious, and I know the answers will vary, but I guess I simply am looking for hope. In a world where I am never understood by anyone, even those closest to me, I hope you, others who *sufffer* with ADHD can offer me some guidance.
Comparing yourself to before and after medication; how has medication improved your life and where has it not? Also I am interested in what type of medication that you are using. I am doing my due diligence that I will be able to make the best decisions moving forward as I feel like this is my last chance in this life.
July 7, 2018 at 6:04 pm #87717
It’s easy to read about all the ADHD success stories here, and become sad because a diagnosis of ADHD did not change your life like others say it did. I’ve known about my ADHD for years, and I’m still trying to figure out how to just live my life. Concerta used to be a magic weapon, but now I have so much anxiety I have trouble finding a dose that I can handle. I need to find a new solution. Please don’t give up. The most important thing is to be good to yourself and not beat yourself up. I don’t know the answers, but I’m still surviving. There was a time I thought I couldn’t take it anymore. I realize now that you have to like yourself and treat yourself like you’re precious. You know that you are special. Things will get better even if you don’t know how that’s going to happen. At 49 years old, I’ve survived many low times in my life, and I know now that I’ll make it through somehow. You’ll see for yourself that you will be OK. Please do not give up, research how to treat yourself well, how to get good sleep, take vitamins, and anything that makes you feel good. You don’t have to make yourself read boring self-help books or force yourself to exercise. Find some way to pamper yourself, even if others don’t understand or think it makes sense. You are on this earth just like they are and deserve to be happy, too.
July 7, 2018 at 6:06 pm #87718
After medication trials, i’m Using the adderall/dexadrine class of medications. For me, Ritalin-type meds did bad things. Some people are fine on either type, some people find that they react badly to one and not the other. It’s a bit of a process. For me, i’m Currently taking adderall, because it lasts all day and seems to work with my daily rhythms. Vyvanse, the longest-lasting med in this class I found to be too steady. For me, it kept me at an artificial ‘on’ that was out of sync with my natural energy cycles. I also take meds every day rather than just in certain situations because I need help focussing across the board and because I am breastfeeding and don’t want to throw off my small’s exposure (amphetamines cross the placental barrier and are excreted in breast milk, as are ssri meds, which I also take, so as baby weans it’s a natural withdrawal process. I am under the care of a medical specialist who is monitoring the process.)
What the meds do for me is they increase my ability to focus and to think things through. What I mean by that is that I am better able to get past the initial ‘problem’ and see not only what can be done about it but also that something can be done about it. So I suppose it helps with filtering thoughts and input. It helps me be more productive and makes my thoughts feel more connected and grounded.
What the meds don’t do is address any learned behaviours, thought patterns and coping skills that are unproductive. That stuff has to be dealt with another way, through things like education, skills learning, therapy (talk, cognitive behavioral, etc), mindfulness, coaching…lots of options.
So medication helps me function and it makes it easier for me to implement skills and practices I’m learning that also help me manage my ADHD and anxiety.
I also take vitamin d, magnesium, omega supplements, and a multivitamin, and try to get some exercise and outdoor time every day because that also helps. If I miss sleep it really impacts my ability to function in a negative way. A meditation practice is also helpful, although i’m not as regulat with that as I’d like to be.
It’s a journey and a process, and there is no quick fix, but it’s also not something that has an expiry date. There really isn’t a cut-off point for when one can start, or restart, working on learning to deal with the condition and oneself. I really encourage you not to give up. There is so much more knowledge now about ADHD and medical and non-medical treatments now than there was only a few years ago, and who knows what we’ll learn in the future. It’s never a lost cause.
Hope this is helpful, and good luck!
July 7, 2018 at 6:16 pm #87719
Also I feel like my post makes me sound like everything is peachy keen all the time with my treatment and that’s not true. I was diagnosed at 29, and have a lot of bad coping skills I’m working through, and I have better days and worse days. I’ll always have ADHD, so i’m never Going to be ‘fixed’, but even with a lot more work still to do I’m in a much better place than I was when I started. I understand how I work a lot better, and I have more skills in my toolbox. And for me medication is an important part of the puzzle but that’s not true for everyone.
Something else that helps is finding a gp to work with who is familiar with the condition, especially in adults, because not everyone is particularly up on current research and the full range of treatment options available. That can make a huge difference as well.
July 7, 2018 at 9:25 pm #87720
Thank you so very much, all of you! This gives me hope and I truly enjoy hearing your side of the *adventure*
July 7, 2018 at 9:31 pm #87722
Also, what about moodiness and over reacting to things? Does medication help with this?
July 7, 2018 at 9:48 pm #87723
Yes, it helps. There’s no question about it. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one who has these traits. Stimulants help you become more aware of what’s going on around you. You’re caught off-guard less often.
July 8, 2018 at 3:16 am #87725
thanks Got2Be! That’s a great way to put it *caught off guard*, always feel like that..lol. Looking forward to restarting treatment and staying hopeful!
July 9, 2018 at 9:41 am #87744
I’m 46, and this year is the first time I’ve sought out medical treatment. It’s been about 5 months, and we still haven’t found the right treatment plan. For some, they find the right medication at the right does quickly. For others, it takes a lot of trial and error.
What I have had the entire time is an appreciation for the potential. That is, even though we haven’t hit the sweat spot yet, I’ve noticed enough of a change that I know it can only get better. So much so, that I often speak of my treatment in terms of being successful and settled (as someone else mentioned above about themselves).
What I’m starting to realize is that waiting until my 40s to get treatment means I have built a lot of bad habits that I must consciously work on changing — they are no match for any medication without focused intention to change them. So keep that in mind.
So, what I’m saying is be ready for a potentially long trial and error. Don’t hesitate to tell your doctor everything that you don’t like about anything that is tried, so you can discuss all the options. And give each iteration a long enough time to prove itself (or not).
July 10, 2018 at 2:33 am #87887
Hi I’m 32 I’ve been diagnosed with adhd since I was 8 years old. I’ve been on Adderall for as long as I can remember 20MG/IR TWO AND A HALF TIMES A DAY SO 50MG IR A DAY 7 DAYS A WEEK. 24 years of amphetamine and now I’m extremely addicted to them. Every month I run out at least a week early because they stop working and I need more and more to get the same effect. The last 10 years have been completed hell. A never ending cycle every month start off taking it how I’m suppose to then about a week into a fresh scrip need more to feel same effects as I did the week before. Before I know I’m double dosing definitely over dosing taking more and more each day. Then comes my greatest fear running out weeks before my next script. I don’t need anybody to tell me I think you’re addicted no fucking shit. I’m more than addicted I am dependent on Adderall just to get out of bed. I know being on Adderall for 24 years has totally fucked my brain structure up. Every month when I run out i go through HELL Yeah meaning withdrawal can’t even get out of bed for days everything becomes pointless and meaningless to me. You couldn’t pay me to get out of bed the first 3 to 4 days of withdrawal I just want to die scared to death to face the world. After the fog clears about a week later I’m in full adhd mode talking to myself out load all day repeating the same shit over and over until I noticed what I’m doing then I tell myself shut the fuck up until I started mumbling and repeating with out realising what I’m doing. Spend so much time just walking in circles inside my house until I realise what I’m doing and hours have already past by spent walking in circles clapping my hand repeating my self. No motivation at all my brains reward system is shot. Everything is pointless until I get that next script shit be like Christmas but the benefits last for about a week then my tolerance levels go up then more more more i need. Have I discussed this with my doctor sure the part about having a higher tolerance and think he should reevaluate my dose he looked in some book said based on my weight I’m at the right dose he can’t up it anymore been same dose for 24 year’s I don’t tell him all the other shit about running out because I take more than I am supposed to and this has been going on 4 the last 10 yeas hell na I be in there like everything is great hurry up and wright me this script so I can go fill it.
July 10, 2018 at 2:35 pm #87953
Here’s a great article for your due diligence. This will help you make an informed decision:
ADDitude Community Moderator, Parenting ADHD Trainer & Author, Mom to teen w/ ADHD, LDs, and autism
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