July 10, 2019 at 8:12 pm #122131
Don’t even know where to begin,
I just got back from the VA, I have been going to the VA off on since 2000. Originally for alcoholism, I sobered up, did the AA thing for the next 18 years, I didn’t ever got the relife that my fellow AA’S did. I was constantly anxious, angry, depressed. It was the insomnia that finally sent me back to the VA. Life was a mess,found out I don’t produce testosterone, so I also take test and of course this leads unbalanced E2 so I am dealing with some hormonal issues also.
Below is a list that the VA and I tried to get some relief, my latest drug to try is QUETIAPINE FUMARATE. My Pshyc wants to try treating Anxiety first but thinks ADHD is likely. Adhd had been suggested when I was in treatment for being a drunk but was never explored again.
Life has turned upside down these past two years, my mom came back into my life after a her three year grudge against me was dropped to get me to helper move back to CA after her divorce, the pressure from Mom was intense during the move and after, which lead to a yet another split. I had moved closer to her at her insistence to a place in her community this need up being a huge mistake as I had spent m savings to move here, it was too far from work for me and now I was thrown not a major depressive crisis over my Mom. I couldn’t move I couldn’t do anything. Unbenounced to me, my mom had been dealing with my dying grandmother during this time, when she died Mom came looking for me once again. Things seemed to go pretty well for a while, we saw a therapist. Things really get much better, However professionally I was still failing(forgotten appointments, pour performance on the job, it’d take me a week to get a simple landscape quote put together and emailed) so Mom asked me to move in with her to get my feet back. Great, my best friend in the world my beautiful little red pitbull Chili Pepper died because I had to let her health insurance go. Since I have been on hair trigger, I slept with an absolutely insane woman and am dealing with the f’ing games she wants to play.
Anyway I have always known that there is a little something different about me, so I have explored and sought answers for the past twenty years or so. And then I read the symptom list for ADHD and wow, ure seems to fit and fit better then anything else that had been suggested before. I looked back and can see the pattern, poor school(I just didn’t get it?) increasingly introverted, Fidgeting, distracted. Early adulthood till now I have all of them but the big ones are irritability, lack of patience, driving is increasingly angering/irritating, If I see a line forget it, and inappropriate reactions to disappointment/rudeness/slights/looks/
Am I in the right place?
I don’t know how much more I will e able to take, it feels as though if one more thing goes wrong, I’m going to have to move somewhere very remote.
Current med: QUETIAPINE FUMARATE -haven’t taken yet.
LORAZEPAM 0.5MG TAB – worked
ALPRAZOLAM 0.5MG – turn me into a A**hole
LORAZEPAM 0.5MG TAB -Worked
And many others
July 11, 2019 at 8:45 pm #122230
July 12, 2019 at 3:46 pm #122289
Misery, we’re just regular folks here, and you gave a lot of information
in your post. In addition, you didn’t actually ask any questions for
people to respond to.
I can tell you that when I begin to feel overwhelmed, as you do, I take
a break, go somewhere quiet, take a few deep breaths and get my stuff
Being angry and stressing about past events doesn’t do a darn thing for
your future. My personal philosophy is that the past is what it is, and
other than apologize to anyone I may have offended, what’s done is done,
and there’s not a thing I can do about it, so, why make myself miserable
stressing over it?
Keep in mind I’m just some old guy with ADHD, but my advice would be
to see a competent MD or Psychologist that is familiar with Adult ADHD.
FWIW, I’d also suggest not bedding any more insane people; it’s a recipe
for disaster. Don’t play their games…if there’s no relationship and nothing
to discuss, then just say “Goodbye”, and move on with your life.
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