Is it just procrastination?

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    • #170946
      TammyLS
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      Hello, I’m brand new to this so please be kind 🙂

      I’m a woman in my thirties and have always had a lot of trouble concentrating on things when it comes to work and studying. Activities that are more focused on creating something or using my hands just for the fun of it and without pressure, I love – eg. art, gardening, cooking, playing music. I was considered fairly bright at school, although the only strictly academic subject I liked was English – other than that, I preferred things like art, music and languages. Otherwise, I was a compulsive daydreamer and although I wanted to listen and do my work in class, if it wasn’t one of those subjects that I loved, I would quickly zone out when listening to the teacher, doodle, dream and eventually get the bare minimum work done in the maximum amount of time allowed. I did go to uni and do a degree and later a master’s degree and it was the same story really – zoning out in lectures, then spending every waking hour studying to get more or less average results. The issue with studying was always that I got very easily distracted, by literally anything other than the books and articles I was meant to be reading, and when it came to writing essays I would basically just stare at my laptop for weeks, producing very little until shortly before the deadline, then bash out whatever I could in the little time I had left (I now wonder if this is what’s called ‘hyperfocusing’?). Work-wise, again it’s a similar story. I 100% HATE!!! sitting at the same desk all day – I constantly fidget and my mind wanders all over the place all day long. I recently left an office-based job for mostly that reason. If I’m in a meeting, even if it’s just with a couple of people, I will zone out when people are talking to me, and it’s only when someone asks me a question and I’ve no idea what they’re talking about that I realise I haven’t been listening to them. Same with socialising – I’m so focused on the music that’s on in the background, what people across the room are doing, etc. that I’ll fall out of the conversation that’s going on around me.

      I’m now working from home, freelancing, and I’m earning money based on how much work I do. As I find it so hard to be productive, I’m only making half as much money as I could be, and today I was literally in tears in front of my computer as I’d been sitting there for hours and hadn’t done a single bit of work – I’d been reading the same paragraph over and over for twenty minutes and just couldn’t find the brain power to process it and move on. My boyfriend jokingly said ‘maybe you have ADHD’ and after doing a bit of research on the symptoms, I’m wondering if he’s correct.

      I’ve looked at lists of symptoms on various websites and some DEFINITELY apply to me, while others don’t at all. I then came across this article: https://www.additudemag.com/working-from-home-adhd/ and it’s describes my experience of working at home to a T – however, I also think it just describes procrastination in general, so I’m wondering whether it’s worth looking into further or not.

      Any advice on whether anyone thinks it could be worth talking to a professional would be welcome – equally as welcome would be any comments on whether this all just sounds like everyday procrastination!

    • #171067
      Penny Williams
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      The only way to know for sure is to get a professional evaluation. You can take an online self-test to see if you might be on the right track.

      [Self-Test] Do I Have ADHD? Symptom Test for Adults

      Penny
      ADDitude Community Moderator, Parenting ADHD Coach & Author, Mom to teen w/ ADHD, LDs, and autism

    • #171121
      katie_o
      Participant

      I’m new here too, you’re not alone. I have similar issues as you and have a drs appointment on Thursday where I plan to ask for assessment. I’m now 40 years old and have struggled (pretty much in silence) so much with things that I thought were just part of my personality and put a lot of it down to being plain lazy. We’ve recently had a crisis in the family and it has given me a huge wake up call and the courage to finally face up to this. I would encourage you to think about how it effects your personal life too. I wrote a list of all my struggles and they suddenly looked more like symptoms and it dawned on me that I could have a better life if I got some help. The test posted above could be a good starting point for you.

    • #171130
      TammyLS
      Participant

      Thanks Katie, I did do the test as well as couple of other I found online and I tend to fall just below the range of scores that they say might indicate having ADHD when I answer optimistically, and just above when I’m thinking worst case scenario! I think talking to a professional is the best course of action. Thanks for the idea of writing a list – I will do that. I also had a family crisis a few years ago (a death) and in the wake of that my patience for listening to people diminished greatly – at the time I thought it was a symptom of grief but it’s stayed with me and I now wonder if it was there to an extent all along.

      Anyway, thank you and I hope you find your Dr’s appointment helpful.

    • #171135
      katie_o
      Participant

      You’re welcome. It’s so nice to talk to people like me 😊

      I’m pretty much the same, symptoms worsen with stress or extra pressures, low b12 levels I’ve noticed particularly effect them.

      To me my symptoms have never felt serious enough to seek medical help but looking back on my life I’ve realised my impulsivity has really been bad for me and as I’m getting older I’m craving peace and order in my life and no matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to get my life in some kind of order.

      Feel free to keep chatting on this thread ❤️

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