May 20, 2019 at 4:38 pm #116953Squirrelsquirrelsquirrel80Participant
I was diagnosed with ADHD in my mid-30’s, three years ago. My entire life I’ve been inattentive and have struggled with social interaction.
Doctors have tried me on different medications with no success. My performance at work has suffered and I will be out of a job in one month. I’ve recently started cognitive behavioral therapy and have been prescribed new medications. As in, they arent ready at the pharmacy yet. I’m very nervous that this is going to be another situation where the medications dont work and I will waste months going through another cycle of wait and see.
I’m losing my job and my wife and I are trying to purchase a house and start a family. I feel like I am failing her in every way. To be blunt, I feel as if I suck at life. I am so racked with guilt, fear, and anxiety that I cant even express how I feel in normal conversations. For those who have struggled to find a combination of medications that work, does it ever get better? Or will it always be a constant uphill struggle in both professional and personal life?
May 20, 2019 at 7:25 pm #116955AngelacaweinParticipant
It might take awhile to find the right medication that works for you. Although medication does help it isn’t a fix all solution. Counselling would be another thing to consider. Have you told your wife how you feel? It always helps if you have some support from family. Just try to have a positive attitude, I believe things happen for reasons.
May 21, 2019 at 12:01 am #116962leftie22Participant
I can’t speak to the ADHD part of your question, since I’m the non-ADHD partner, but I’ve been through many of the things you’re describing and I understand how frustrating it can be.
I think this can all work, you just have to throw some pre-conceived notions of how life “should” be out the window. If my husband had been diagnosed with ADHD before we got married, we could have made some very different decisions before we got into the rat race of home ownership and parenting, and had to make decisions to support that life.
What I mean is, you need to look at what really IS, not what you think you and your wife SHOULD have/do/be. Does she have a good job? Is she okay with being the bread winner, if your employment is unstable or hard to keep? Are you okay with that? What role could you take on, if she is/wants to be the one with the more stable job? Would you consider working part time and doing more of the parenting time if you had kids? Etc. Also, buying a house creates a lot more financial pressure in most cases, so I would look at all the options and see if that’s really the most feasible if employment is something that’s been an ongoing struggle, or if you think money will fluctuate a lot.
All of these options are completely valid and none of them mean that you’re failing – you both just need to talk a lot about what you want your lives to look like, based on the reality of who you both are, what your means are and what’s important to both of you.
I wanted to stay home with my kids and I made a lot of bad decisions because I didn’t really understand the impact ADHD would have on our lives and how I could mitigate that. The more you can let your preconceived ideas of “success” and “failure” go, the more you can plan even when things are chaotic. If I had been able to factor that chaos in sooner, I think my husband and I would have had a lot less stress and made decisions that were more appropriate for our reality! It took me 7 years, but I finally realized that I can’t stay home and make life work financially. To make life less stressful, I had to go back to work. I found something part time that still lets me do the bulk of the childcare. I wish I had been open to that (and known ADHD was a part of our lives) 7 years sooner.
I hope you also find a good health plan that makes life less chaotic for you, but it might take some of the pressure off to change your expectations and allow for some uncertainty and flux. Good luck!
May 21, 2019 at 1:15 pm #116996Celeste65Participant
Another thing you should consider is how having a child or children with ADHD/ADD would complicate things.
I have read numerous posts on another ADHD website, from spouses who are the only “nons” in the house, and what challenges they face.
May 21, 2019 at 6:07 pm #117025leftie22Participant
Celeste65 – that’s definitely true, too! One of my kids has ADHD and autism, and despite him being really high functioning, it’s a definite stressor. Because I’m able to keep a cooler head and be consistent, I find that a lot of the parenting falls to me, and I don’t have someone who can jump in when it’s my turn to need a break.
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