I am seeing a new psychiatrist and doing testing for ADHD.
One of the things that interfere most with my functioning is that I constantly seek pleasure or seek out pleasurable activities. Online shopping, sex, weed, alcohol, reading about topics that interest me, binge eating, you name it.
It’s like I can’t ‘tolerate’ any other tasks. If I do start another task, I think about pleasurable activities 5 minutes in. It’s like I have no self control. It’s very distressing and it’s increasing my anxiety around work.
Avoiding discomfort is a big issue for many with ADHD. Right now, most of your coping mechanisms are unhealthy. Finding healthy alternatives/replacement behaviors and choosing them in those moments is very, very hard, but it’s paramount. Also, building your distress and discomfort tolerance is necessary.