Could I have ADHD

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      had90
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      Hi
      I just wanted to know if it was really possible if I might have ADHD & if I should go through the trouble to get assessed ( since there is really no assessment centers where I live)

      I have been told once that I might have high functioning ADHD. It seemed so unlikely to me as I never forget or lose things. I never failed school & throughout high school I was one of the top students. I graduated college with a good GPA, never failed a subject. I’d say I always remind myself with the important stuff with reminders etc, & because I fear I’ll forget they be circulating in mind throughout the day. I do forget some small stuff tho, but I feel its normal

      My issue is that I’m a huge procrastinator. I’d study the night before, do assignments one day before due date and live that huge pressure of trying to finish it on time and do it good, every time I tell myself I will spare me this trouble next time, but I keep on doing it. I bought some course for procrastination months ago, haven’t gone through it yet. When Id sit to do a presentation for example, I just get overwhelmed with the work, how boring it is and how I also want to make it perfect. I daydream a lot, my mind wanders a lot, Even in important conversations. I fear failure and rejection so so much, I don’t want anyone to hate me so I people please.

      I’m known to be lazy, or at least that’s how I portrayed myself so I can skip doing things that make me anxious. But also, maybe I am in fact really lazy for not being able to do what I have to do to succeed.
      What I’m so concerned about now, is me letting opportunities slip out of my hands, intentionally because I don’t want to live the failure/ humiliation what so ever.
      Is it worth trying for an assessment, or is this completely beyond being a possible ADHD

    • #134704
      quietlylost
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      It’s always a possibility. People with ADHD can function at very high levels, so much so that the diagnosis remains hidden for decades. We all find ways to cope with our struggles and be resilient in the face of them. That doesn’t mean the disorder doesn’t impact us or doesn’t exist at all.

      If you’re wondering, definitely go talk to someone. Maybe take one of the screening assessments beforehand, or look up the criteria and make notes on which ones you think apply to you. Then ask, “In what ways are these symptoms impairing my life day to day?” What would you like to do to change them?

      Regardless of whether or not you get a diagnosis, the skills and tools you learn along the way and for dealing with ADHD specifically can be helpful. I’d also suggest the HowToADHD Youtube channel for a plethora of useful resources.

      In the end, decide if your symptoms are getting in the way of your life. If so, it’s time to address them.

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      Hi Had90!

      I have recently been coming to terms with my own diagnosis of inattentive ADD. Your post really resonates with me, as I have been very similar with my own habits and feelings. I am a major procrastinator. I even procrastinate getting ready to the point where I am chronically late for almost everything, even though I REALLY want to be on time and will even sprint to my destination just to save a minute or 2. From an early age (around 10) I felt independently internally motivated to get good grades, and since, I have always been a top student. One of my elementary school teachers expressed concern to my mother that I wasn’t listening to her, and believed I might have impaired hearing. We got my hearing tested and it was just fine. I learned not long after about different styles of learning (hands on, written, auditory, etc) and I acknowledged immediately to myself that I “wasn’t an auditory learner at all”. That’s all I’ve believed it was from elementary school until university. Even when I got diagnosed, I felt like I was faking my diagnosis, because some of the key symptoms weren’t matching up. I don’t lose important items very often. I get great grades. But I’ve realized that what i have, is effective compensatory strategies. I don’t lose items because they are in their spot (if they aren’t, then I will not remember where I put them, as I would not have been paying attention). I get great grades, because I use procrastination as a tool for motivation, allowing me to hyper focus, whereas if I gave myself more time, i would not be able to do it, I would end up just daydreaming or getting distracted by something else entirely.

      Sometimes labels can do more harm than good, and I’m a prideful person who didnt want to have anything “wrong” with me. Typically a diagnosis of ADD will only be given if symptoms are having a significant negative impact on your functioning. But i seem to manage quite well on the outside. I LOOK like I’m paying attention when people are speaking to me, but then I miss important details, or perhaps everything. I am I good student that goes to all my lectures because that’s what students are supposed to do, but I have never listened an entire lecture in my life. 90% of the time I dont even know the topic. Sustaining attention is too hard, it feels impossible unless I’m incredibly interested in the topic. I can take notes for hours without even acknowledging what I’m writing, and when I read it later (last minute) to study, it is always entirely unfamiliar new information to me.

      I don’t know if that is helpful to you, but i thought it may sound familiar.

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