I know how you feel but You matter, your feelings matter, your opinion matter. Google adhd symptoms and you will start seeing your self in the symptoms you will feeling a sense of relief because you think wow there’s a name for this and maybe just maybe there is a cure. I just ordered 2 audible books-
“You Are a Badass How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life” and
The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F–k!