I just wanted to say I read this and I thought I was the only one who was experiencing this. I obviously have no advice but somehow by you sharing your thoughts and feelings it gave me a bit of a breath. I’m currently kicking and detoxing from a lot of medications that I have taken for 7 years leaving worse than I was and I can say for the first time I’m proud of myself for overcoming the dependency on “pointless depressing meds”. Now I’m looking for ways to improve my thinking and my physically drained and disconnected body. Quite frustrating but so was the last 7 years. Keep your head up and keep searching for the better feeling you formula.