Hi Tamoshin85. you are doing the best thing, which is reaching out for help. People here will respond, but I think you ought to talk to your doctor as well. I don’t think ADHD is destroying your life. But I do think you ought to schedule a new visit with your doctor. Tell him I replied to you on line. I am a psychiatrist myself. My name is Ned Hallowell. I am sure if you stay in touch with your doctor, you can steady yourself and start to feel better. Good luck.