Dandilion – yes it is scary – have just been through the journey of wondering…self-testing…and detailed Psych assessment. And I ‘was’ ADD! I’m looking back on my life (now over 50) and thinking ‘all those struggles may have been averted by knowing what i was dealing with and maybe having the right meds! So go You for coming to this site! There are a mix of emotions along the way, but you sound so similar to my description of myself when I began the process. and part of me ‘didn’t want to know. I haven’t started the meds yet and really hoping beyond hope that they do what my research indicates they’ll do! Good luck!!