I’m actually a recovering alcoholic. 6 months sober..my first trip to rehab was at 19, I was having DT and seizures from alcohol withdrawal (I felt like my Irish-native grandpa..AT NINETEEN!)—anyway, I relapsed and relapsed until I was able to treat my adhd with the correct medication…I was encouraged by my sponsor the first time to wait a year before I get on meds, I never did after 2 years, and my adhd symptoms were horrid I couldn’t be a functioning human, even sober..and at the time I didn’t know that’s what it was , and discouragement led me to relapses for years and years. My current sponsor is 13 years sober, and she was a liscemced therapist for 10 years, and had adhd herself! Hers isn’t as extreme as mine (esp my hyperactivity), but she really thought I needed to treat my adhd at the same time of getting sober. When I wasn’t on the meds, the 13 steps never sunk in, and my old sponsor thought my true adhd symptoms were “character defects” (I bet you can guess what that did to my self esteem).
Anyway, this time, I’ve never been more stable and sane…I take adderral 30 XR with a 10 CR in the morning, then 20 shirt adderral at 5 pm after my 6-mile run after I get off work at 3…this works great!!
I’m not at all saying you are an alcoholic, but what I am saying is my current sponsor noticed 99 percent of my drinking was triggered by boredom. Adhd is what I call “chronic boredom syndrome” lol. Not that I didn’t have things to do, BUT those things were not stimulating enough!!!! I crave my brain to be aroused, and barely anything (except exercise and maybe my math and computer programming job) does that!! So I drank to be un-bored!! And at parties and bars and such, I got bored..bc without my meds to slow my brain down, socializing is boring. I’m gonna sounds like an asshole, but I medicated, I get bored with people. I can’t engage, bc they aren’t “enough” stimulation, and I have trouble with eye contact and etc. I get antsy bc I don’t want to hurt their feelings, but I can’t stamd it. I was so ashamed I felt that way for so long…but the adderral along with coping skills has helped me learn how to connect with people via active listening, and being able to sit still.
I truly feel content most days having fun with friends, when before in AA gatherings, people would talk about how fun they were, and I never had fun at all, was bored..and then would think “is this all their is to life?” And I was missing out on personal connection, which is what life is all about!!!
I don’t go to bars often, unless I have good reason to be there for an event or holiday, but I honestly can say I have zero temptation and have a blast being my goofy self..the booze in others hands aren’t any different than a Coca Cola—it doesn’t even register they are consuming booze! But that’s OnLY if I keep up on my adhd treatment. I guess— what meds you take? Do you struggle with chronic boredom? Would you Junk exercise or something to get endorphins and energy out may decrease temptation?
Also: maybe focus on what fun you can bring TP the s situation versus what fun you can get out of it. Is adhder’s are fun people!!! Almost entertainment in ourselves lol