So much of your post resonates with me. I had my first appointment with an ADHD specialist last Thursday, and also went in half expecting to be told that I’m being ridiculous. I’m 44 years old, fairly intelligent, and have largely found ways to either work around or avoid my problems with disorganization and procrastination.
For me, it was work that drove me to make the appointment I’ve inadvertently found myself in a role that is largely self-managed, involves juggling multiple projects with hazy deadlines, and requires attention to detail. So many of my weaknesses. But there are so many great things about it, and it involves a lot of big picture thinking and brainstorming as well. It’s the first job I’ve loved, and I am constantly screwing things up and dropping balls.
Reading your post, though, I realize that maybe my home life is more impacted than I’d like to admit. I will have to think about that.
Anyway, I came home from my first appointment with a prescription for 10mg extended release Adderall, to be upped to 20mg if I don’t have side effects. So far, I’m pretty sure I’m feeling no effects, side or otherwise.
I keep turning this diagnosis over in my mind. By seeking out an ADHD specialist, did I create an “everything looks like a nail when you’re a hammer” scenario? But if I hadn’t gone to a specialist, I’d be wondering if they knew what they were talking about. I’ve suspected for almost 20 years that I have ADHD, but is it real?