I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to sound like you weren’t struggling, I know it’s hard. One of my doctors once told me to stop and give myself 30 minuets before I made a decision, it still helps me today. Just a suggestion? Sometimes what I really want is attention from my husband, I just would never ask for it. Never! Now I do, it’s still hard but I do. I just say, I need a hug, I need to talk, he was amazed! But after he got over the shock…he hugged me. ❤️. I’m not going to say it wasn’t scary, but it was worth it. I’m needy.