I am completely on the same page as you and I have almost identical struggles/ can really relate to your experience in so many ways. I am beyond frustrated and frankly just completely FED up with being stuck in this cycle I want to break the cycle too and fast, been trying and feeling like I am failing for weeks now and want to get on the right path to success and happiness etc asap! Would love to chat with you more about this and share ideas/ solutions! I new user to this website, just recently found it(and love it), but I am not sure how it works yet fully, so hope to connect with you somehow!!