Paul, thanks very much for your reply. I’m in the US. Best of luck with the appointment with the psychiatrist. I had an appointment with my GP today and was nervous about what her reaction would be to the diagnosis I received from a psychiatrist. It turned out that she was very understanding and supportive, and I needn’t have worried.
After reading your message this morning, I listened to this podcast on the way to my appointment. I’m not sure if it’s the one you meant, but I was blown away at how well it described my experience:
Your description of twisting and turning to try to deal with emotions, and how your emotions now are influenced by those twists and turns as you now are coming to a new understanding, is both moving and spot on. I’m right there with you.