Hi socknoggle. I feel exactly the same. After diagnosis and medication of elvanse 60mg per day and a brief spell of feeling better I can only handle one part of my life correctly and the others fall apart. No control over temper, emotions, anything. I feel the need to drink just to sleep and rarely hyperfocus on anything constructively. It’s all a mess and all around me are distancing themselves from my regular fallout. I sometimes wish I never had a diagnosis. Yes I was similar before but I had my own ways to cope. They no longer work.
I hope you feel better soon.