Wow, this almost give me the chills… I had no idea other people felt this way…. I had no idea why? I thought because I’m such a people pleaser so I am always conforming to what other ppl want. I hate it because now… at 34, I am confused. I wish I could go back and change so many things now that I’m older and understand better… and know what it stems from. Thank you for sharing! Feels good to know I’m not alone!