It sounds like Adderall might not be the right ADHD medication for you. It may be time to try a different medication.
It’s important to work on your anxiety and emotions, as well. You have “learned” to be very fearful of making mistakes and not measuring up. Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT) can help a great deal with this:
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