Joyce, thank you so much for your response. It was so thoughtful and so genuine, and exactly what I needed to hear. My friends and family do not understand that A has legitimate issues that cause him to act the way he does – they assume it’s a lack of discipline and rules on my part and that’s definitely not the case. It’s so helpful to talk with someone who truly understands our struggle. And I didn’t even realize it, but I am grieving for the child that I thought I’d have, for the picture of parenting I had before I actually became a parent. I thought it would be so different – difficult, yes – but different. I guess I didn’t realize I could feel that grief and still love my little boy with all my heart.
Thank you again, your words meant so much to me.