Wow, I could have written this post! I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for more than 10 years now. It all started with postpartum. I was on sertraline for a long time and had no sex drive. So I was switched to Wellbutrin to help with my SAD which I suffer. It does seem to help, but I have total self-loathing too. I feel like I can never do anything right and I never finish what I start.
So I was unofficially diagnosed with ADHD and am taking Adderall. I have read scary things online about the two so of course the anxiety kicks in. I am on an extremely low dose of the Adderall and my physician thinks it isn’t enough. I go for the official testing in 2 weeks.
I can completely relate though to all you are going through. Maybe this is the answer for both of us. A big hug to you. Fingers crossed for relief soon!