I’m 38 and was diagnosed when I was in elementary school with ADD. I want to say I know you are financially in debt, but if you kill yourself what does that do to your wife and kids? Emotionally and financially? I believe that is the cheating way out. I’m not a strong person by any means, I’ve that about it but it is not easier for those you left behind. You are a Man, just like I am we need to be there for our families. You said your son was diagnosed the same time you were? Let say you did kill yourself what message are you sending to him? Its ok to do that when life gets hard? Or go the the other road as tough as it may be and overcome the odds.