I clicked on your post because I wanted a glimpse into the future of someone with severe ADHD. Man oh man! That does sound difficult. I am sorry to hear about all of the things you’ve been going through lately. But don’t give up.
I just picked up a book called ‘Your brain is always listening’ by Dr. Amen. If you were my son/daughter I would buy you a copy hoping that it might help you reframe some of the things that have happened to you, so that you could hopefully better deal with them and be able to move forward.
You can do it! I just know you can.