Glad to hear your steps forward. Write that letter! Break it down in to chunks, don’t get overwhelmed by the emotional side of it and bounce off. Please share it when you’re done so we can read it.
Side note about Red Bull: Red Bull and other “energy drinks” usually don’t contain much more caffeine than a cup of coffee, but they do contain a LOAD of sugar and artificial chemicals. In college I used to think that they were better for helping me stay up, but, actually it just made the crash even worse. They were also very expensive little cans. Don’t get sucked in by the sky divers and extreme sports marketing – it’s just liquid candy.