I am so sorry you’re struggling! It’s really important to work through these feelings so you can get to the other side. It could be really beneficial to work with a therapist.
Also, medication is a huge help to many adults with ADHD. Truly. Talk to your clinician about trying it. If it doesn’t help, you can always stop taking it.
ADDitude Community Moderator, Parenting ADHD Coach, Podcaster & Author, Mom to teen w/ ADHD, LDs, and autism