I’m sorry you’re struggling with this. Take a look at these articles and see if they have some nuggets of wisdom you can implement for better connections.
How to Make Friends as an Adult: A Guide for Women with ADHD
We Need to Talk About How ADHD Affects Interpersonal Relationships
Penny
ADDitude Community Moderator, Parenting ADHD Coach, Podcaster & Author, Mom to teen w/ ADHD, LDs, and autism