I am unable to respond regarding experience as a mother with ADHD, but I do want to empathize with you, particularly as this very issue has been of great distress of late. I am 35-years-old and echo your exact sentiments and challenges. I have enormous fears of not being able to cope as a mother, and feel like I have to choose between my life and giving life. Also, my clock is ticking and ticking fast, and I cannot find the answer (also struggling with a partner who has expressed his concern of having children with me for this very reason, which has only led me to more shame and distress). I hope someone will share their experiences here for us both. Please know you are not alone. I’m sending you positive support.