I am sorry you have to deal with that. That’s tough. I understand why people get nervous about medication. I used to get nervous about it, too, but here’s what helped me: Taking medication for ADHD is just like wearing glasses when your vision is blurry. It would be silly to insist someone go without glasses. Also, having ADHD means having a deficit of neurotransmitters. Your brain is actually missing ingredients that neurotypical brains have. The medicine compensates for those missing ingredients. Medication is not, “messing with” your brain, it’s standing in for neurotransmitters that other people’s brains manufacture on their own. I saw a meme once that said, “If you can’t make your own neurotransmitters, store-bought is fine.”
I think it’s responsible to take the medications that will help you feel like yourself. You shouldn’t have to feel shamed about doing something that benefits your mental health and changes your life for the better. I give my 8-year-old medication and it gives me peace of mind that his brain and sense of self is able to develop with a balance of brain chemistry rather than with the imbalance that causes all sorts of issues in his life. My doctor also told me she loves treating ADHD because it’s one of the few mental health issues that responds incredibly well to medication. Maybe your family will come around if they see what a difference the right medication makes for you.
I was really nervous to start medication and I put it off. When I took it for the first time, I got emotional over how much better I felt. I could not believe that normal people felt this calm and functional on a daily basis. I honestly think if your family could feel your struggles and feel the difference the right medication makes, they’d be all for you taking medication.