hello! thanks for your reply.
I am looking into an ADHD diagnosis as i strongly believe i have it and i really resonate with RSD. I’ts even harder since i am not an open person and i never really lean on anyone when i need it so i can not emotionally express myself so sometimes i feel as though my friends cant get close to me since i bottle everything up. Im coming to realise i need other people in my life but even that is painful since i care so deeply about my friends. Im rambling because i cant gather my thoughts but i really appreciate the reply!
much love <3