Reply To: Learning to cope with my ego.

Dr. Eric

Could of, would of, and should of all sound great, but they are no substitute for what is.

Try doing a self-study.

Pick the same project or work-day where you have similar tasks. Do one day with meds, and one without.
I have been doing this occasionally since 1994.

I may be more on the extreme end, but consistently am 6 times more productive medicated.

Then, you have a tangible choice.
If your difference is that it takes 3 hours unmedicated what you can do in one hour medicated, at least you are making an informed choice.

My ego says keep my job and do what it takes to be most productive.
This includes meds, but also includes sleep, diet, and exercise.