People do well when they can. Your struggle is not a character flaw, it’s a symptom of a different neurology.
I would recommend the book, “You Mean I’m Not Crazy, Lazy or Stupid?” It will help you work through these feelings.
Crying, Screaming, and Hiding: All the Ways I Deal with ADHD Shame
Penny
ADDitude Community Moderator, Parenting ADHD Coach, Podcaster & Author, Mom to teen w/ ADHD, LDs, and autism