Is it possible that you are depressed? Life is extra hard right now with the pandemic and the lack of control we have over it can cause a lot of anxiety and/or depression.
I think you also have to stop worrying about what others will think — which I know is super hard. Doing what you feel is best for your family is what matters most.
ADDitude Community Moderator, Parenting ADHD Coach, Podcaster & Author, Mom to teen w/ ADHD, LDs, and autism