I’m a lifelong ADHD sufferer and I have to say, I wish other people would be as honest as you when dealing with learning and emotional issues. It makes diagnosis and treatment possible. It sounds like, from your description, these issues might need to be talked through with a psychiatrist or psychologist. My neuropsychiatrist used the word “comorbid” and said that a lot of learning and emotional issues travel together. I don’t know if you have ADD but there may be much wisdom in seeking advice from a professional. It’s their job and they’ve seen it all. Best of luck to you!