Thanks for responding and sharing. I was a bit surprised because this section is for women and girls. Nonetheless, it seems you could relate a bit.
You definitely picked up a quote and I think accurately labeled it as PTSD.
What makes that so difficult is that, unlike a war or a rape, this is a WEDDING to a man I am still happily married to! So it is very disturbing to me and I have a need to remember the event happily.