Hello! About ten minutes ago I decided to go looking for an adult ADD forum. I’ve been sheltering at home for eleven weeks now, working from home as a software engineer while staring at an urban loft full of clutter, chaos, and half-finished projects. That has pushed my can’t-get-started into overdrive. When I got here I was not the least bit surprised to find that the newest message on the forum was a pretty much perfect description of where I am right now. I’ve never been good at getting started, and 2020 has pushed it to new highs. Lows?
I think the core of my problem is that I get overwhelmed by either the number or magnitude of the things that I have to do, and they just keep swimming in front of me. I can’t start because everything just feels so overwhelming. About a week and a half ago I sunk pretty low on this, and just the thought of getting out of bed and logging in to start work was beyond me… mostly because I was way behind on a project. I fired off a note to my boss saying I was going to take a couple of days off to deal with stuff and started making a mental list of the home projects that were bothering me most.
Did it work? Partially. Taking my work projects off of Mount ToDo made it easier for me to find a toehold on the home tasks. I’ve managed to make a few small inroads, and knocking things off the list feels good enough that I want to attack other things. Sometimes I add things to my list after I do them just so I can check them off. (-: Throwing a lot of crap out and giving myself more breathing room has also improved my outlook on life. The bad news is that it hasn’t helped much with digging out from under Mount Work, and I don’t know how to solve that one.
Anyway, hello. I can now check “Look for an adult ADD support forum” off of my checklist and go to bed. I’ve accomplished something.