I know the feeling. I’ve been trying to find a new job for over a year now, but I just go for a little bit every few months, get overwhelmed by the prospects of changing everything in my life, convince myself to put up with it for another month/year/whatever, and give up on the search. I don’t understand how some people can just “do” something. It’s as alien a concept to me as other people seem to find my task paralysis. That’s what makes it hard for me to go on, that I don’t know anybody else with ADHD and so I feel like they don’t understand me. I find lists hard to use too, they just get so big that I give up trying.