Reply To: I am losing my mind.


Man. I’m already burnt out. Like today. Other kids was asleep but he of course hasn’t napped. So I started dishes. I gave him a new toy that is actually his brothers. I said do not break this because it’s your brothers. You can play with it until he wakes up though. Brand new. Little magnetic easel thing with a pen and the circles you draw with. Anyways. I go to do dishes and start watching a show on my phone. He is getting frustrated at the toy, wanting my constant attention. He is getting more and more frustrated so I take it away because I dont want him to break it before his brother can play with it. I look and there is indentations from him stabbing it with the pen but it still works. So I’m pretty mad but continue dishes. He is coming to me every 15 seconds wanting to talk or play and I keep saying I’m doing dishes. By the time I’m done doing dishes I’ve almost lost my mind. He just needs CONSTANT attention and it drives me insane sometimes. Then his brother wakes up and I give him the toy and realize the pen is broke. He is so hyper and has so many outbursts that he is always breaking toys or books. Then my boyfriend was mad I even gave it to him first. I should have known better. But anyways. Somedays he can be somewhat calm or there are times he does sit and watch tv or sit with me and then I doubt myself. Overall I know he is EXTREMELY hyper though and very hard to keep focused or keep from getting angry. Or listen. I’m paranoid that I’m gonna ask his doctor and they just think im a crappy parent. What if I am just a crappy parent? What if I get him medicine and he isnt adhd. Idk. I have tried so many parenting methods tho and they dont seem to work no matter how hard I try. It’s so frustrating and then I feel really guilty. Because he is a good and sweet kid, but he just gets so hyper or frustrated and carried away that he is always in trouble. Makes me feel like crap because if he is not adhd that means I just suck as a parent. But if he is adhd he is in trouble for stuff he can’t control which means I’m a crappy parent. Lol. Idk. I’m frustrated