I would definitely talk to someone about your suicidal feelings. Have you tried any other medications? I’ve triedAbout 15. Only one works vyvanse but I’m willing to try more and more and more and more until I find something that helps. I’m 42 I’m overwhelmed and I drown myself in self-pity sometimes. Just hold on. It won’t everbe perfect but it will be a lot better.I I am a father of two kids. I wash the clothes I wash the dishes I clean the sinks and the tub’s. I clean the bathrooms. My wife Has a lot on her plate too. She doesn’t believe in ADD.But that’s just life .nobody believesWhat you’re going through is as bad as it is until they’re going through it too. The stigma is so bad I never told my fatherAnd I never will.