Lillitu83 I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through. It sounds like you are really doing it tough 🙁 You must be an incredibly resilient woman! Unfortunately I don’t have any advice, other than to say take whatever help is on offer – I know it’s hard to overcome the sense of guilt but you can’t care for others if you’re not looking after yourself. And keep advocating for your kids and I hope you find something that helps. Best wishes xx