I’m sorry you’re going through all of that. I really relate to so much of what you’ve shared. Being out of work myself has been such a struggle. You should be proud that you had a successful career and likely have marketable talent. Not everyone can say that. Not sure if it’s possible but maybe if you look at the tiny studio as if you are a twentysomething in the sense that you’re embarking on a fresh new stage of life where anything is possible…finding activities that make you happy, and going to meet up like events where you could make new friends…I know it might sound like malarkey but just like others have noted it’s easier to try to help others than help ourselves… good luck getting yourself off the ground!