I was diagnosed in December after being treated by around 12 Psychiatrist’s for Major Depression across 20 years (which is still there… grrrrrrrrrrr)
Everything instantly fell into place.. the good stuff but as we all know well, the dark and disappointing stuff came to the fore.
I see it like a grief period, where you go from being sad then across to angry and then back to sad again… rinse and repeat, with bits of denial scattered within. From experience it does eventually drop away.. It’ll never ever be somewhere in you mind, but as someone finally slapped me in the face with – we can not change the past.
If you do have an spouse/parter/friend, take them the journey to learn. They’ll find out (or likely already figure) so best to take the lead on this one. Support from family and friends is paramount.