It appears I am not alone. I hadn’t thought of the defiance aspect. I do tend to resist when I’m pushed. When something is suggested, when I am encouraged, whole different ball game. Being told equals resistance, suggestions and encouragement equal cooperation.
Apprehension I well relate to. Failure being my comfort zone, same.
I appreciate the comments each of you have made.
I trust you have strong support networks around you.
Take care 🙂