You just described my life but with writing instead of visual art. I wrote a lot in college because I had projects and assignments, but now that I’ve graduated it’s so much harder. I love thinking the stories in my head but never want to bother with writing them down. Or just write the “interesting parts” and get bored just like you said! And it does feel like a particularly deep and personal failure. I haven’t found a solution, but I wanted to offer my solidarity. Reading your post made me feel like I was not alone. And I wanted to encourage you that you are still an artist even in “dry seasons” where you don’t create. The creative power is still in you; your symptoms are just coming in between that power and tangible pieces of art. I believe in you and in all of us artists who currently feel alienated from our passions— that we will find a good stride again!